|these tears come from the heart, explains why the tears are of blood
||[Oct. 22nd, 2001|04:25 pm]
|||||bush "speed kills"||]|
today was a awkward day. i was so worried about my grades. i was sure i failed lit and that scared the shit outta me. cuz in my house you dont fail at anything. if i failed i would have literally got my ass kicked by my dad. he freaks if i get a c. my moms the same way but she doesnt totally lose it she just gives me the "im disappointed in you" speech . and how i could do much better. yea im sure i could do much better if i was locked in my room all day with no tv radio computer phone or whatever but id be sad and go crazy and kill myself so what good would that do. well anyway i did good on the report card so no beating today. today was the first day i talked to kelsey in a friendly way in awhile. i kinda feel afraid to tell her anything thats bad cuz now i odnt know what shell do so im kinda livin a lie. i think she got mad cuz i only told her 1/2 of the things me n ray did last sunday. chh matt has told EVERYONE that knows me n ray! i come up to him and wes today n the hall and kels is with me and wes looks at me starts laughing and making faces so i know what he was laughing at so i kicked matt and matt was like i didnt really tell him.....yea you told him enuff. but i dont care but thats how kels found out about everything me n ray did.
then in 6th period klay was tryin to show billy how to roll a joint....hmm yea.
jeremys drivin craig now i think. back to the lonely walk down to boiling park. oh well i have an ortho tom so ill wont be there after 6th. well im bored ima go to sleep.