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bad boyz bad boyz [Oct. 26th, 2001|04:04 pm]
[mood |anxious]
[music |puddle of mudd]

haha just the thought of kelsey gettin arrested makes every part of me smile. so yesterday kels call me and tells me about how her n rami n morgan did this crap about rhiannon and rhiannons lil brother saw the pics and told her mom. rhiannons parents flip out and say they are gonna send her to another school and call chs and tell them about what kels n rami n morgan did. so joking around i said the school would call the cops since its a threat and crap and she was like oh no and kept saying that stuff but alas rhiannon talked her mom into not calling the school. i swear if kels did get arrested it would be so funny.
oh well at the time in presence me n jeremy n rachel are trying to fig out what to do about the football game and matts party. but oh well im outta here nonetheless.
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(no subject) [Oct. 25th, 2001|05:15 pm]
[mood |nauseated]
[music |fuck you]

when i know you 2 are together but i dont know what your doing, i think bad thoughts and go insane. i think the worst. i cant stand the thought of you with her but i have to deal with it cuz thats how it is.
asta fuckers
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(no subject) [Oct. 24th, 2001|07:51 pm]
[mood |lethargic]
[music |"adams song" blink 182]

i want the weekend to come much faster. this week has suxed.
it was weird last nite. this guy matt (not johnson) imed me and was saying he missed me and wanted me to come to church sunday and what not. dude the last time he talked to me he wanted a bj. i dunno im stil suspicous. but i do miss talkin to him n jen n drew so i think i will go. im supposed to hang with jen sat at sum lil outdoor bar b que fair thingy i dunno. i wanna do something else this weekend...he he he i wonder what. it involves another person but oh well i wont get my hopes up. oh well im gonna shower.
sorry about atoms puppy.
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these tears come from the heart, explains why the tears are of blood [Oct. 22nd, 2001|04:25 pm]
[mood |lonely]
[music |bush "speed kills"]

today was a awkward day. i was so worried about my grades. i was sure i failed lit and that scared the shit outta me. cuz in my house you dont fail at anything. if i failed i would have literally got my ass kicked by my dad. he freaks if i get a c. my moms the same way but she doesnt totally lose it she just gives me the "im disappointed in you" speech . and how i could do much better. yea im sure i could do much better if i was locked in my room all day with no tv radio computer phone or whatever but id be sad and go crazy and kill myself so what good would that do. well anyway i did good on the report card so no beating today. today was the first day i talked to kelsey in a friendly way in awhile. i kinda feel afraid to tell her anything thats bad cuz now i odnt know what shell do so im kinda livin a lie. i think she got mad cuz i only told her 1/2 of the things me n ray did last sunday. chh matt has told EVERYONE that knows me n ray! i come up to him and wes today n the hall and kels is with me and wes looks at me starts laughing and making faces so i know what he was laughing at so i kicked matt and matt was like i didnt really tell him.....yea you told him enuff. but i dont care but thats how kels found out about everything me n ray did.
then in 6th period klay was tryin to show billy how to roll a joint....hmm yea.
jeremys drivin craig now i think. back to the lonely walk down to boiling park. oh well i have an ortho tom so ill wont be there after 6th. well im bored ima go to sleep.
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kiss my ass about this song [Oct. 21st, 2001|10:03 pm]
[mood |sad]

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

you know who you are that im deicating this song to

and if anyone else doesnt like it? well who gives a shit
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the long nites ahead i look forward to spending them with you [Oct. 21st, 2001|11:58 am]
[mood |tired]
[music | brite side of life/death...monty python version]

oh what a long day yesterday. the actual day wasnt so bad i went and got matts bday presents...one of them was cologne cuz you know matt has that "smell". then around 6 i went to his house and gave them to him and me n him went to blimpies. he seemed to really like them meatballs and that pickle. then we get home and he beats me up. always beating me up. i have bruises matt! haha we almost stabbed each other with this big long steak knife. fun stuff. we were watching as good as it gets and matt felt compelled to d/l that song "always look on the brite side of your life" the one jack nicholson was sing to the doggy. such a cute lil ole mutt.
ahh but then i came home and was checking my email. kels sent me an email saying she was gonna kill herself. i stayed up til about 130 trying to calm her down. ahh im so tired. its funny how no matter how many times you can tell sumone something they wont believe it til they say it aloud for themselves. but i dont think kels wants me gettin into all that stuff. jeremys awesome! had to put it in there. hes prolly the best thing in my life...so corny but so true. oh well so i wont sound gay or whatever im just gonna go get sum lunch. l8r

"did they look like psychos to you? psychos dont explode when sunlight hits them. i dont care how crazy they are"
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these moment with you ill treasure always jeremy [Oct. 16th, 2001|08:09 pm]
[mood |high]
[music |ill catch you -the get up kids]

well i dont think theres anyone who doesnt know about what happened with me n ray sunday. i dont care i had fun saturday and sunday so whatever. oh well i was only worried what matt n jeremy thought and its all cool with them so who gives a shit what anyone else thinks.
anyway i talked to jeremy on the phone for bout an hour n 1/2 it was cool. he fell on his sk8 board while on the phone...haha dork! anyway i think im gonna go to the mall on oct 31 just b/c jeremy said not to cuz there is supposed to be an attack on malls or something. like one of the terrorists wrote a note to his g/f sayin she would never see him again and not to get on a plane 9/11 or go to a mall oct 31. hmm sounds like fun i should go to the mall just to see nothing happen. na j/k ill do something with one of my friends then. ahh jeremy knows how to make me feel better...that kid doesnt know how awesome he is. i love you jeremy!!! dont worry i will sing for you one day. and that song you sang for me was cool. to bad you ripped off misfits....tsk tsk. naa kidding i loved it.
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good ole ray [Oct. 14th, 2001|12:04 am]
[mood |happy]
[music |"how you remind me" nickelback]

well me n kels went see corky ramano today. it was funny but not as funny as zoolander. then we came home n ray was bored so he came over to my house and we just chilled for like an hour 1/2. hes awesome. def a cool guy. he complimented kels...shes happy. anyway we walked him back to matts and i got my beanie back!!!hoo raa but he still has my hoodie! oh well it was cool talkin to ray. i wanna go over to matts house tom.
watchin snl..drew barrymore...ycklsh
im kinda mediating between jeremy rachel n kels. for like teh 3rd time. oh well
god for sum reason hangin with ray kinda made my nite. jeremys not talking to me right now and its not bothering me so much cuz im really happy.
haha i think rachels gettin mad at me...i dont know why im just telling her how it looks
well im gonna finish watchin snl ill write l8r
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if i told you i didnt love you anymore id be lying but youd feel better so what am i to do? [Oct. 12th, 2001|11:37 pm]
[mood |drained]
[music |"iron man"--oh yea]

well we lost our hc game...boo hoo. anyway i saw this guy at the game who looked just like osama benladin...it was funny when i told kels and she started freakin out. "omg what if it IS him observing us jen?"...."then i guess well all die!!! besides you think ppl give a shit if canton gets blown off the map?..its not him kels"
funny stuff.
me n jeremy kept having staring contest....man is he hard to beat. i think i like beat him once outta like 15 times. but i did beat him in thumb war...oh yea were dorks!!! rachel kept lookin mad at kels or sumin i dunno. oh well it was fun.
i kept zoning out there, i dunno what was wrong.
damnit i wanna go to matts right now...he said hes save me a lil....prolly none! oh well i love him anyway. ima go see him b4 he leaves for hc.
ran into cassi n her dad at brusters. i was just looking for cassi and i was about to say sumin about her dad when he walked up. evil man!
i told jeremy sumin very personal last nite...hope he doesnt tell. but i know he wont cuz hes cool like that.
well im gettin outta here. l8r
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(no subject) [Oct. 12th, 2001|06:40 pm]
[mood |apathetic]
[music |third engine]

yea well we had that dumb prep rally today. i was waitin on kels at the top of 100 hall but she didnt show up....hmm surprised? anyway so me n jon went and watched the preps celebrate. haha jon was saying they were herding us or sumin like nazis. it was funny. we sat on the steps and atom n cody n craig were down a few ppl. anyway im going to the damn football game. i wish me n kels n jeremy n rachel n everyone can hang out sumwhere else than a game but oh well. hopefully ill get to stop by matts house afterwards. rays there with sum good stuff. ill prolly just go tom. matts hair is gettin so shaggy now. saves the day style. anyway i wish i would have just left 7th period but oh well. well i gotta get out of here...l8r all
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